Honesty is the best policy… I don’t cope very well in the evenings if I haven’t napped at least once during the day. To top it off I’m having more energy during the day and struggle to fall asleep for the nap I need to carry me through the evenings!
Last night was another bad night – not entirely P2s fault. My hormones are definitely still all over the place and once again they got the better of me by the evening.
I attempted to start getting her used to laying in her Moses basket from about 6pm but P2 was having none of it. She wanted boobie and she wanted it there and then. I managed to sneak away for 10minutes to put P1 to bed. But then it was back to being the milk machine – at each interval I put her back in her Moses which lasted about 5-10minutes. Eventually, at 2am Miss P2 fell asleep in her Moses basket and luckily we didn’t hear a peep from her until 5am. So technically she only woke once.
I never imagined breastfeeding to be this draining. There’s no getting away from it – if I’m not feeding I’m leaking. Her feeds are so irregular so I can never be far away.
On top of these cluster feeds – we are dealing with a very windy baby. Which I think is half the reason she won’t settle. No matter how long I wind her for I just cannot get all of it up. I can tell she’s so uncomfortable.
Despite the struggles the past few nights and the temptation to express my milk and hand the baby to my OH – I’m loving breastfeeding. I love the bond, the closeness and the way P2 depends on me.
Today I’m meant to be tidying the bedroom. It’s got completely our of hand as I haven’t had the energy or motivation to tackle it. The last time I did a serious tidy up was the day before I had P2! Far too long when you have been receiving gifts that needs locating in a room with little storage (I’m grateful for every gift by the way)
Instead, I’ve decided to spend all this week tidying so will be doing little and often. Mainly because P2 is quite settled today so I’m enjoying the peace whilst she sleeps and isn’t demanding boobie therefore I’ll need to save my energy for tonights antics.
Off I go to sort rubbish and clothes out… Anyone got any tips for a breastfed windy 19day old baby?