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Kidney Disease & My Family

Growing up I was extremely close to my Grandparents. I spent a lot of time with them whilst my Mum and (ex) step dad worked hard for my brother and me. I remember times when we’d walk up to town with my grandparents and my Nan would have to stop and catch her breath frequently. She would also feel the …

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Happy 79th Birthday Nan!

It’s my Nan’s birthday today. She’s now missed two. She would have been 79 years old today. Normally, every year, I get excited by my Nan’s birthday. It marks exactly one week until mine. Last year, we were busy planning for her funeral on the 23rd and it was my wedding on my birthday last year. But this year feels …

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Letter To My Nan – 1 Year

Hi Nan, I don’t think anyone knew how we’d all react when today came. Monday and Tuesday I cried several times, feeling anxious and agitated about today. I knew I didn’t want to be moping around feeling sorry for myself. Today, the girls have been really treated and it was lovely to watch them have fun at Build-A-Bear. I know …

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Letter To My Nan – 10 Months

Hi Nan, I can’t believe that it’s been 10 months since I last saw your face and heard your voice. It feels like just yesterday that you were tucked up in bed complaining that you really needed to get up as it was gone 9am. I miss you so much. I sorted your sewing box out the other week. It …

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Letter To My Nan – 9 Months

Hi Nan, Thank you so much for leaving me your locket. I have many memories of you laying in bed showing me the empty pictures when I used to stay the night at yours. I have no words to describe how much it means to me to have the locket. I could really do with some Nan advice recently. P1 …

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“That locket was very precious to my Nan”

On Wednesday my Grandad came over to Kent to spent the day with us. It was a lovely day and we visited the local nature trail too. When he arrived he gave me something, he said “here’s a little piece of Nan”. I knew what it was as he’d told me I’d be given it soon but I wasn’t quite …

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Letter To My Nan – 8 Months

Hi Nan, I’ve been thinking about you a lot this month. Asking myself questions that will never be answered, like what your last thought was and whether you were in pain when you passed away. My other Grandad passed away. He’ll be up there with you somewhere and I hope you can share many stories from my childhood with him. …

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Letter To My Nan – 7 Months

Hi Nan, I have some pretty big news for you. We are having another baby! I can imagine you rolling your eyes and saying “I thought you might be”. You knew with P2. I’m a little upset about things though, the thought of you never meeting this baby and not having you come visit me in the hospital just hours …

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Letter To My Nan – 6 Months

To Nan, I can’t and don’t want to believe that it’s been 6 months without you. Half a flipping year and I can tell you now that the pain just seems to get worse each day. There’s so much I want to talk to you about. So much guidance that I need, the type of advice that only you could …

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Letter To My Nan – 5 Months

Hi Nan, So much has gone on this past month. So many things I wish I could come round whilst you have dialysis and tell you about. I’ve finally had a dream come true. Hubby and I have opened our own business! It’s a cloth nappy company and we’ve incorporated the girls names in the company name; Freeva. We have …

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Letter To My Nan – 4 Months

Hi Nan, I’m really struggling this month accepting that I’ll never see you again or be able to feel your warm arms around me as our glasses clash when we hug. I miss you! Grandad wasn’t very imaginative with the Christmas presents this year, he definitely needs you to guide him on that one. I did all our Christmas shopping …

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Letter To My Nan – 2 Months

Hi Nan, Life in Kent finally feels like home. I know you were really unhappy when we told you about the move but I also know that you can see we are happier over here. P1 is doing so well at school! We are all so proud. She’s basically reading short stories on her own, you know the Biff and …

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“Today was really weird”

Today was really weird. I returned to Essex for P1s swimming lesson and we spent some time with my Grandad. I haven’t seen him since we moved out. I stupidly dressed myself and the girls in summery outfits and forgot coats. Typically for England it rained a lot. This wasn’t the weird part, the odd part about this was that my …

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