My Relationship With Food

Growing up I don’t think food was really my friend. I’d turn my nose up at anything remotely odd looking or smelling without even actually tasting it. I wouldn’t dare to touch a pepperoni pizza or a Chinese, let alone Curry or even fruit. I was always the reason we chose certain restaurants or had certain things for dinner and I see now, that I was probably the biggest pain imaginable.

When I met my hubby and I think I’ve mentioned this before on my blog, I used to have to send a list of the foods I liked if I ever stayed over at his house or went there for the day. The list consisted of things like chicken nuggets, chips, jacket potato, chicken pie (but only the gravy version) and a cheese pizza. God forbid if something like a casserole with rice was to be placed in front of me. But I’d eat it to be polite. The whole situation was incredibly immature when I look back at it.

Move on four years and I am a completely changed person. Food is still not my friend because I have become the opposite to my previous self. I love food. I have finally started to enjoy food but I enjoy it so much that it’s become a bit of a problem for me. I look at my naked self in the mirror and I can’t see me anymore. I see a wobbly, things going south, ageing woman. I’m not really a spring chicken anymore and that kind of terrifies me.

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So the past few weeks I have started to use my new found love for food to create better choices for my body. I’ve dieted with Juice Plus and failed so this time I know I need more of a permanent fixture. A better lifestyle I suppose. When we went to Asda recently I found myself naturally picking better food choices and every morning I am making a healthy breakfast to enjoy.

Part of me is interested in becoming vegetarian or even vegan if I’m honest but I think that this is a bigger challenge than I am willing to take on, especially as my Hubby wouldn’t be on the same page as me so it would make things very expensive and inconvenient for us as a family. But the principle of being healthier and caring for my body is still there. Every time I look in the mirror it’s a constant reminder of who I don’t want to be and there’s only one person who can change it.

It frustrates me when people laugh at my goal and that’s because I’m not exactly fat. I just have this image of who I want to be and who I am now. They are completely different. I want to be healthy on the inside and slim on the outside. To be honest I am jealous of my eldest daughter who is literally skin and bone. I feel happiest when I am wearing tight things as it gives me confidence and right now all I wear is baggy, floaty items that don’t really do my petite stature any favours.

So I am on a mission this summer to be healthy and skinny by Christmas. Mainly tackling my chunky thighs and my wobbly tummy. Wish me luck!

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20 comments

  1. I’m fairly ok with most food but there are some foods that I didn’t like before moving to Ireland the I do eat now. It’s amazing how things can change with culture.

  2. I have to say that I don’t think you need to lose any weight either BUT I do know how it feels to not exactly like the way you look or feel. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, its how you feel about yourself that matters. There is no harm what so ever in making healthier choices and being aware of what you eat more. I’m dairy free, not vegan, and its not as hard as you think. My family and I eat different foods and we get on ok. I’m sure you would too! xx

    • It’s all the wobbly bits. I want to be firm. I don’t necessarily think it’s weight I need to lose or I might disappear.

  3. A mission to be healthy is great, and the best way to lose/maintain weight, in my opinion 🙂 Good luck! And, I’m a vegetarian and my husband isn’t. It’s really not as inconvenient as you might think, or expensive. Happy to answer any questions on making that work xx

  4. Lovely, i met you last month and trust me when i say you have no wobbly bits or areas of your body to be concerned about. You are tiny! I guess we all have our insecurities though so best of luck xx

  5. Good luck lovely! Choosing the right foods can really help 🙂 You can do it!

  6. Good luck! A lot of my friends are on Slimming World and it is something I am going to look into – it seems you can eat ‘real food’ while still making healthy choices?

  7. Good luck! I’m a fairly picky eater still (constantly avoid cheese, unless it’s microwave macaroni pasta which makes no sense I’ll admit) and I don’t really like milk/dairy, apart from a dash of milk in my coffee. I’ve been really unhappy with my weight recently as I’ve gained a lot at uni, but I’ve started Slimming World again this week and I’m hoping for positive results as it’ll up my intake of fruit and veg too!

    Emily // Beauty and Lifestyle Blog

    xx

  8. Good luck hunny! I wish you all the best. Here’s to being skinny by Christmas!

  9. good luck! I have found that just being pickier about what I eat, in a good way, has helped my health. I think if you make things from scratch and avoid things filled with sugar, you’ll do well x

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